A confession… well, this is a difficult one for me and requires a lot of thought.
The best answer I can give is that while I can be useful and kind, I can also be a lazy fart sometimes – and I’ve also been known to be selfish, mean, thoughtless, or all three. Maybe it all balances out, and only God knows the answer to that… but I have let people down: I have let mySELF down. I’ve done some “not nice” things in my life, and that has led to people getting hurt either directly or indirectly.
I would like for this to serve as a public apology to anyone I’ve ever hurt. I’d like to make amends to the degree that I can, but much of my ill behavior occurred in my past, while under the influence of substances that have erased the memory – so unless I am confronted and reminded of the incident, it will likely never return to my memory. Please let me know if you feel I owe you an apology or other amends – but preferably by contacting me privately.
While I have never killed anyone or knowingly caused physical harm to come to somebody, I have (on occasion) wanted to – but that’s just not who I am. I could not do so unless they were an immediate threat to me or my loved ones. Even then, self-defense is not in my skill set. I suppose it should be… but I digress, as usual.
Being on higher dosages of Prednisone like I am as I write this can make me grumpy and mean – and at dosages over 100 mg even psychotic and in need of Klonopin to bring me back into a reasonable “zone” for dealing with me. I will be writing more about the side effects of Prednisone in an upcoming post. I will also be writing about hospital-induced PTSD.
What about you? What are your confessions? Answer or link to your answer in the comments below!
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